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What to Expect When You Reject an Abuser
They hate when their worst nightmare comes true.
To be lost in love, to be consumed by it. I made him the center of my being. He was my everything. I had cut ties with all my friends. My family could barely recognize me. I had an estranged relationship with my colleagues. All because I was led to believe, everyone was jealous of our love.
Love makes us strong. Love also destroys us. I have lived and felt both sides of love. But the side that destroys has shut my heart to love. It isn’t worth it. I stopped believing in fairytales. I stopped waiting for a prince charming who would climb the mountain tops to give me paradise on earth.
I stopped waiting for him, who wouldn’t come. I realized that my fragile heart can’t handle such pain from love. I’m too weak to keep a bit of me that will pick me up when love fails. I don’t know how to hold back. Tell me, “you love me,” and I will fall all over you.
He was the calmest and endearing man I had ever meet. He was like the stars, giving light to everything he touched. How could my heart not illuminate at his words? Call me stupid, but when you are in love, everything seems magical.
I wasn’t just captivated by his words. His touch gave a lingering mesmerizing sensation. His masculine torso pinned me…
