Peaceful? I doubt that. You still sound troubled, sorry. But I get you. You fill your life with sex to distract you from what's happening inside.

And you direct your anger issues towards others so easily. It's called displacement, a sign of psychological trauma.

When you're at peace, your words and actions towards other humans and animals will reflect it.

PS: Please my words are not intended to be offensive, my friend. I only expressed my opinion based on the signs I've seen and lived through. Peace!