Oh my God this is horrible. I almost shouted "what a monster." Then I remember this could have been me if I had succeeded in killing my daughter and myself when she was barely 3 months old.

I still hate myself for even thinking of committing suicide.

And just like Christina, I thought I was doing a good deed if my girl isn't alive to grow up without a mother.

Depression is crazy. It will twist your mind to see evil as good.