Hmmm...me thinking ...am I really deluded? Nah! Not at all. But do I ever feel lonely? Sometimes.
I think loneliness is inevitable whether you are partnered up or single. There are times I shut everyone out so I can wallow in my lonesome.
But the difference is I don't see loneliness as a punishment or something to be ashamed of. We have been taught to feel insufficient without a partner. Women more than men are on the receiving end of a such toxic culture.
So what I do is reverse-engineer every toxic belief that keeps me (a woman) feeling inadequate. Having a partner is awesome. But I found not being in a committed partnership works best for me.
I'm glad you finally got your wish. Have fun, Yana! I believe there is so much to life than marriage and partnership.